hmmmm....Well i am really fucked up. I have scars on my writs from when i couldn't handle the pian inside. I wanted to hurt myself even more i stopped eating and lost 12 pounds in 2 months. I have a really fucked up realationship with my parents. And i fucked up my realationship with the only person in the world who i thought truly cared about, and the wrost part is i know i am the one who fucked it up. I really just want it all to go back to when i wasn't fucked up, when i loved my parents, when they loved me.
how about some info on me besides the fucked up stuff....well i am gay(I hate the word lesbain) i came out to my parents and it was one of the most painful experiences of my life, it hurts so much just to think about it. I am out to pretty much everyone except my brother and extened family.
oh yeah and just from some recent experiences i know have this huge fear of getting close to people, becasue it seems when i tell em how much i care for them i get rejected and pushed away, but maybe thats my fault...just thinking about all this shit makes me wanna go out and cut...so i probobly should stop writing/thinking about it.