sometimes I wonder...wat if I had spent the summer with my friends...would I have turned out the same way?...most of the summer consisted of me watchin the telly-vision when I was supposed to be out partyin' with friends. Why I never went out with them I dunno, it must have been fate. One night while flippin' channels I saw Buffy the Vampire Slayer on, so I was watchin for a lil while and then I saw Willow givin Tara a lil lip lovin, I put that scene in the back of my mind and changed the channels, but then there was a lingering question, could I possibly be gay? I had never really thought about it since I wasn't really around anything like it. But throughout the summer I saw more shows showin lesbian and bisexual couples and that question was sorta answered, I think I might be gay!... I thought about it all the time thinkin of when I was with friends at the pool and how my eyes would linger on some of my friend's bodies or when I would watch some shows thinkin about how pretty or cool an actress was when all my friends were fawning over the leading man. I knew something was definitely not normal. I went on leading what I thought was a normal life, acting as if nothing had changed over the summer. But then everything changed. When I was standing at a friend's locker I got tickled by one of my best friends, so as revenge I tickled her back, but then all of a sudden it hit me, while she was tickling me, I in turn was checking her out...I was attracted to a girl! this was all so completely new to me...and now I am gay positive...but I still can't help wonder... what if I had never seen that Buffy Episode?