I'm furious now. For the first time I really feel like I hate this place. I feel thae hate that I've had for every other school I've been to running through my vains. I hate the lonliness and I hate the people behind it and tommorow, I'm gonna hate not having a job.
Forty minute ago I found out that the shift schedualing for my camous job happened today. I was gone all day at a workshop and though I knew it was comming up, since the last two shift meeting were on sundays and I hadn't gotten an email about it, I'd be okay. I wasn't there isn't a single shift left that I can take. In other words, I'm fucked.
That camous job was my sole source of income, and the thing that kept me from leaching off of my parents for money, parents who were already streatching to pay tuition.
I am fucked
this school has raped me
brused and bleading
alone in my room
wondering what happened
wondering what i did wrong
wondering what I'll do
ashamed for being here
ashamed for comming back
ashamed that I pretended
though quiet stares past coffee cups
and breif converstions with people who
don't sa hi
I'm ashamed that I let this school
and this world look through me
and that I put on a smile for them
I hate them and the tears they pull