My Dilemma

Vedis's picture

Okay, there are three love interests in my life at the moment. Firstly, my boyfriend. He's sweet, funny, and head-over-heels in love with me, and has been since fifth grade. But I don't love him. He's one step above a best friend, but I just don't love him. Secondly is my ex-girlfriend. We were best friends for several years before stumbled into love. But we didn't get together until she had moved away, so for almost two years we had a long distance relationship. I used to be desperately in love with her, but we broke up for two months at one point, and I fell out of love. When we got back together I didn't realize it wasn't love anymore, and didn't break up with her till after she came down for two weeks. Thidly, is my best friend. She's a lesbian, and the coolest person in the world, which is why I'm hopelessly in love with her.

Okay, easy choice. Right? Wrong. It's more complicated than that.

Problem #1: My bf has always been there for me, and I can see myself learning to love him. He's the safety rope for me.

Problem #2: I'm guilt-ridden about breaking up with my ex. Her mother gives her hell because she's bi, and she doesn't have many friends where she moved to. Not to sound self-righteous, but I was the only bright spark in her life.

Problem #3: My ex has hinted to me several times that she's still in love with me, and would like to get back together with me.

Problem #4: I'm pretty sure my best friend doesn't have any feelings for me. I've hinted at liking her before, but either she hasn't picked up on it, or she's ignoring it.

Problem #5: The most obvious choice is the least likely. My best friend is still head-over-heels for her ex. Her ex cheated on her with her best friend, and then they broke up. So she's trying to go out with my friend again. I'm sure my friend will take her back. (still with me here?)

So what am I supposed to do?


jeff's picture

Sounds like...

you're single and looking for someone new, with three friends in your past.