Tonight I hurt someone really badly. I risked loosing them and their love, along with their trust. I did something really horrible, which I regret, and what's worse is that I did it to protect myself. I made that person cry, I messed with their mind, and I feel like killing myself. I never in my wildest dreams, thought someone could cry over me, let alone someone who has known me for less than a month. I don't know how I've damaged them, or what they think of me now, I just hope that I can gain back everything I lost tonight. It's almost as if someone filled my lungs with carbondioxide, not just anyone, but myself, and that too in the process of protecting myself, from someone so magnificent and beautiful. This is what they call "feeling shitty".