Best friend has developed crush for someone, yet can not properly cope. Have been thinking about this for some time. Have come to conclusion that I have only been in love once, was so painful have never been in love again. Further, have realized annoying purpose of life. Not going to tell anyone. Laughed a little at life, and people in general. Have decided that I hate more people than like. Would rather have enemies than friends, and friends than lovers. Have decided to make money as means of existence. Hate college. Hate life. Yet shall attend college and live (as in eat and breath) to spite world.