People listen to me. My opinions in the real world can be so highly regarded. People want to hear my thoughts and beliefs because I'm articulate and at times, or at least I try, witty.
However, I realize more and more I'm a novelty. No one ever stops to know me or even knows me. I don't want to be dramatic, but it's true in the basic sense and even expanded. People don't stop to know maggie the person and it kills me sometimes.
There is this status where you're a billboard everyone wants to read, but no one stops to take into account there's more behind it.
Maybe I'm upset that I'm far from a soulmate because I'm also far from anything more than a good acquaintance.
Even my "good friends" admit they don't know a thing about me nor understand what I do, but I'm "fun to be around."
Then I get annoyed or a sabotage those friendships so they go away, and I'm alone again. I don't mind it, as long as I'm going somewhere.