what did I just do???

dazed and confused's picture

I was just upstairs talking with a friend, and mentioned that I was going to be missing work next weekend. She asked why, and I told her I was going on a retreat. I'm going on a campus ministry retreat for GLB/Questioning & friends. When she asked where I was going, I knew I wasn't just going to be able to say a retreat, and I was right...she asked what kind of retreat.

So...I took a huge breath and said it was a retreat for gay, lesbian, questioning students and friends. She just kind of looked up and said that it was cool...and that was that. But right now my stomach is in a knot. I don't think my friend would assume anything, but I honestly don't know how much longer it's going to be before I tell her I'm a lesbian. And the thought of doing that scares the hell out of me. I don't know why; I mean, she's a awesome person and totally wouldn't care, but it's scary. None of my friends here know about me... I think that will be changing soon.

Sorry if this seems a bit random and poorly written, but I'm a bit out of sorts at the moment. I wish I could just implant the knowledge that I'm gay in everyone's heads, I don't want to have to tell them.

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JB's picture

heh

Well, telling your friend you were going on the re-treat i would say that you have pretty much come out to her with that statement. and as her not making any issue over it... do you want your friends to make an issue over it? seems they haven't so far.