I can't wait until I get to go to college next year. Maybe then I will actually be able to come out to people because my parents and relatives will never find out. I just wish I could be the person that I truly am. Everyone keeps saying that living in Vermont and being homosexual must be a dream. Isn't all that it is cracked up to be. I don't know how the civil union thing got passed. Barely anyone is accepting of those that are different. But when I grow up and if I still live in Vermont I will be able to get a civil union easily. Maybe there is a plus to living in Vermont.
Then there is Michelle. That was a mistake and a half. I don't know why I had to go and sleep with her. I should have known that all she wanted was a sexual relationship from me. I want more then that from a person. Why can't you ever find anyone without coming out to everyone. There has to be a better way to live life then hiding who you really are.
I really hope that at college in a big city I will be able to finally be myself! Wish me luck!