ah this whole thing is doing my head in. basically i'm seeinng this guy, but over the last couple of months i've been starting to think quite a lot about this girl i know. shes pretty much amazing, she beautiful shes funny we get on well, and shes bisexual. we've always flirted with each other, and then last friday we were flirting pretty heavily, an the next thing i knwo we're kissing. this repeats several times, then we went back to her flat an spent the night drinking and talking. nothing else happened, but theres such an edge between us, its prety clear we both wana screw each others brains out. thing is she's 8 years older than me, also sorta seein someone tho its not a big deal, and im pretty certain my best friend wil desert me if she found out. yeah so you think its not a big deal, two girl kiss, pretty normal, i want it to be more than that, i want to be with her really badly. on the other hand i gota conisder what my friends will do, and the guy im seeing, i love him to bits but id end it if i knew i coudl be with her. ha how teen magazine do i sound.
am i straight, am i bi? i got no fucking clue. im so scared i'l lose evrythin if i folow this through, an if i do what hapens if i wana get out of it. i'd have lost everythin for no reason. ah shit what do i do?!