I am having one of the worst days of my life.

adrian's picture

Frames still suck, and i'm being forced to make them against my will , better judgement and professional advice. It's like selling you soul to satan , except with the express intent that he violently and repeatedly anally rape you with a broadsword. You can see the end result.. but you are rapidly careening towards a cliff with no breaks and still accelating insanely.

On top of that it's been a very tense day , I havent slept.. i got some very bad news regarding a very close friend of mine, whose entire future now hangs in the balance and the hands of some other undisclosed person. I havent slept. My favorite club is closing .. and I've had this feeling of impending doom for the last month that my 'party' days are over.

I am going to miss my 'social life' , although .. I have been finding myself 'cocooning' more and more. In the last three months , I have gone out clubbing once, and while that experience was enjoyable.. I felt past my prime... (and I am only 21 for fucksakes). Oasis has been taking up a fair amount of my time, but it's mostly because I know that It's worth my time doing it. The friendships I've made here seem so much more real than the lip service we pay to acquaintences ex shags etc.

I need to meet someone nice .. a proper boyfriend.. I think it's time , since I really want/need a compassionate soul that i can actually reach out and touch sometimes.

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JB's picture

Gay MIddle age

Adrian my dear,
I too went thro what you are going thro about 2 years ago. not going out anymore, and feeling disconnected with your old friends and old scene, the memories were a blast, the boys cute. but thats the way it is. its evolution. you have reached gay middle age. I thought I could never give up clubbing. it was an addiction. I tried to give it up in 1999. I even left the city to stay with friends. i literally ahd convulsions from the clubbing withdrawl. gradually tho, over the last two years i have cut it out. its a progression. i was going 4 times a week, cut it down to weekends, then every other weekend then onc a month etc.

it can be done,, and remeber, gay middle age has some perks aswell. think of the $$$ u will save ;)

love

JB
Vice President and Drug Tzar of The Movement To Free Ommpa loompa Land From The Tyrannical Rule Of The Evil Capitalsitic Despot Willy Wonka And Associates

jeff's picture

Wait...

are you saying Drupal has frames support? Dude, that rocks!

Jeff