so yeah. tori concert last night was amazing. tori amos is a goddess. and i saw so many couples around me. i got envious. i mean, i know i stopped the datey thing cause its not worth my time right now. its just not. but i still miss that whole holding-that-temporarily-special-someone's hand. which is unfortunate. i know im okay on my own, but i still want that company. which, once again, big with the unfortunate. and then theres that whole "need to get out of here" thing. difficult, with the being 17/not graduated/not good looking enough to be a prostitute problem. though, strangly, now, the whole concept of having sex just stopped being appealing. thats weird. i couldnt quite get my fill before, and now the whole thing just seems dumb, useless, and over-rated. thats what enough selfdeclaredpurposelysingle thinking time will do to a boy. totally fuck with his brain. which sucks for my brain. and to think. i didnt think i had anything to think about sitting at my computer desk, drinking my tea.