Watching the Melissa Etheridge dvd and cursing myself for eating.....fun fun fun.........I had a very good afternoon...lotsa fun.........I am dead tired though. I have slept around 5 hours in the last two days. Gettin a little monotonous(sp?)....But I cant prevent it or help it...I just dont sleep. ::Chants "Must sleep" repeatedly:: Yah. So anyways....got a voice mail from Lena....I think I am ready to move on now. Let go of the memories of Allie, and the hurt and pain, and just move on. Find someone who truly cares and loves me. I have been harboring these terrible pains and anger inside me for so long and I have cried over them, relived them, was angry about them, and I can finally let them go.
So thats what I have decided. But thats today. Tomorrow is a new day and I am looking for to moving on.