Strip searches and birthday parties

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It sucks when.. you're not invited to your best friend's 16th birthday party because her boyfriend doesnt like you. The boyfriend, that happens to be homophobic and a pot head.
It sucks when.. you're not invited to your best friend's 16th birthday party but the boy who did sexual things with you one night and never talked to you agian afterwards was invited.
It sucks that you have to pretend like you dont mind.
And what realy sucks is that I have to go to church tomorrow and learn about what a siner I am.

The above things should be bothering me right now. I should be crying. Ive become pretty nonchalant about all of it though. Sometimes when I go to bed the things that I ignore come back but right now im just letting things flow and not worrying about them. I got a detention in 8th grade for being 'nonchalant' Ive come to realy like that word.

Random fact: 2 years a go today I was admitted to a mental hospital. Maybe i should strip search myself just to relive the memories.

Life makes me laugh