You know, I had everything planned out. My life was set. I got average grades, I liked a girl, my friends all knew I was there for them, I was in the musical, I had a job, college was just waiting there for me to come in and take over next year. It was great. Somehow, in the course of a month I've quit my job, my grades have nose-dived, the musical ended, college looms over me like a scary looming thing, and I'm dating this GUY. This guy that I went out with two years ago, amoungst all of my "I can't be gay" confusion. I figured out the secret though! I'm a lesbian, so why the guy now? AND above all things, the girl I liked, who's worked her way up to being one of my best friends . . . well, my other close friend, Justin, who's gay, totally likes her. He likes a girl, my girl, and I can't really get mad because she doesn't belong to me in way, shape, or form and plus am I not doing the same thing with 'dating' Jacob? This is all so stupid.