Fuck school and fuck all these immature and uncomfortable parasites invading what could potentially have been my happy being. I'm 17 now and life hasnt ever looked so bleak... I've decided that since my love life is next to extinct, I'd attempt living it through my friends who are on the verge of loving big, and through my short and unfinished fitcional dreams.
Looking in the mirror each day is a battle, and often times, a losing one. Looking down at my dated scale is also like reading a predictable story, always ending up the way you expected, and never as good as you hoped. Calling him on the phone every night is like being naked on stage in front of the entire world, a fresh cut wound everytime he doesnt answer or when he does, like diving into an ice-cold pool, blindfolded, anxious and scared.
The people here are by far the worst of all the nuances of modern day living. Acting like freshly exposed, and close minded, children. The thought of any taboo is always a thoguht that brings a malignant smirk to their lit up and childishly naieve faces. Their cold hearted and uncaring remarks unearthing old pains and scars from my past.
In conclusion, people are cold and uncaring. Life is merely a depressing play filled with false hopes and unrealities. A mere passing of souls, from the forced entrance into this cruel world to the greedily waited upon end. As for the living vessels that transport the hosts, only the ones created perfectley find life a game and find life enjoyable. I hope you like your lives. Fuck you all.