Falling apart slowly....

Spirit1313's picture

There never seems to be enough hugs, yet there is always enough pain. Its a cycle thats vicious but so a live that it will forever continue. No matter how much good I encounter, I come across twice as much bad. I dont understand how this works.
My family is slowly falling apart. Once one problem is fixed, three more inevitably take its place. It happens over and over again. I just want to run away from it all. Every last part of it. NEVER EVER come back and NEVER EVER deal with this murderous bullshit that kills me slowly.
I am sure I have it pretty good compared to others. I know I do. I know that right now, my life is ten times better than half the people out there. I am grateful for that. I have survived enough of the shit that is lurking out there to know when to be grateful and when to hold a grudge. But hells, right now there is just so much bad coming at me at one time, I dont think I can handle it all. I just dont have the energy to fight it.
I dont know. Its like, I have this cloud of negativity following me and when it sees something going right, it has to rain down upon me and ruin it.
::sighs:: I need something positive. Something to run out the bad. I need to write or something. Cya later.
"Its like being locked in the back of a taxi and watching out the back window as everything you know gets left behind."


Beryl's picture

My theory...

is the good and the bad balance, but the goods worth twice as much. Which probably explains why no one listens to me. :p