A friend.

DiamondDog's picture

My friend Melissa ended her life on Sunday at 11pm by hanging herself in her apartment.

I don't know what this is, a Eulogy, maybe something like that.

I learned from her. From the fact she lived through more than so many of us with real and true problems. She had ovarian cancer. Before that, she didn't get along well with her parents and they provided little support to her. She found herself pregnant, and despite the fact having children would likely cause severe complications, she refused to abort. When she miscarried (due to chemo treatments and a lot of surgery from the cancer) she felt she failed life, she was going to have twins.

She came out soon after that, with much flak fom her last boyfriend. Her family totally disowned her for it. Except her brother who she had always been close with.

She was dating and enjoying finally being out when she went into a coma and registered zero brain activity. Her parents wanted to pull the plug, but her brother fought for those rights, and soon after she pulled out of it. Even more amazing was the fact her cancer was receding.

Everything was getting better for her, but she fell to some part of her psyche. She left no note, no reason. She didn't tell people about it.

Her brother has since followed her.

Melissa had dreams of a garden. Maybe it is her afterlife. I need to believe in that. I need to believe she has happiness and that she's with her brother. I need to believe that love is stronger than death.

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JB's picture

This helps

This song Helps me Purge. Makes me sad and happy at the same time.

Lullaby

she grew up with
the children of the stars
in the hollywood hills and the boulevard
her parents threw big parties
everyone was there
they hung out with folks like
dennis hopper, bob seeger, sonny and cher

now, she feels safe
in this bar on fairfax
and from the stage I can tell that
she can't let go and she can't relax
and just before
she hangs her head to cry
I sing to her a lullaby, I sing

everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye
everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye
rockabye

she still lives with her mom
outside the city
down that street about a half a mile
and all her friends tell her
she's so pretty
but she'd be a whole lot prettier
if she smiled once in a while
`cause even her smile
looks like a frown
she's seen her share of devils
in this angel town

But, everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye
everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye
rockabye

I told her I ain't so sure
about this place
it's hard to play a gig in this town
and keep a straight face
seems like everyone here's got a plan
it's kind of like nashville with a tan, but,

everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye
everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye

everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye
everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye,rockabye, bye, bye
bye, bye

by Shawn Mullins

Vice President & Drug Tzar of The Movement To Free Ommpa loompa Land From The Tyrannical Rule Of The Evil Capitalsitic Despot Willy Wonka And Associates
*said in a positive manner and not to be constrewed as negative feedback, sorry in advance