Have you ever had one of those moments when all of a sudden you realize everything in your life is backwards? I just did....Now I am sitting here pondering. I am pondering what life just for the hell of it.
Sitting back and analyzing my life, I realize I am not happy. I am rather lost in fact. I dont even really have a real best friend. Sure I have those friends I am going to miss like hell when I go to college after next year, but they arent the kind I can tell everything. There is Amy. Shes cool. I have known her since I was a little kid. But she tends to forget about me every now and then. Thats just the way Amy is. Not really a fault. Just a mishap or a technicality in her personality.
I also realized I still like someone from about a month ago. Not exactly a good thing. But we got a long really well and we talked. We werent all over each other. Not like now. Now that I am in a relationship, I am not really happy. We dont talk, and I feel like I was, in a way, pushed into it. My friend just kinda said "Heres this kid your going on a date." and then everyone was like "Heres this kid you went on a date with, now you are going to be a couple." All because we were cute together. What kind of fucked up relation ship is that? But now I dont know how to well, I suppose get out of it. There are feelings there in that relationship, but it was so rushed that sometimes I just need to step back and just breathe. We dont even hang out all that often so that we can get to know each other. Its just one giant mess thats wreaking havoc. With this other person it was better. We enjoyed each other's company, we laughed, we had fun, I looked forward to the next time we got to hang out.
Well I suppose thats enough drama for now. Someone save me! Please?