My Way: An Adieu

JB's picture

"Its been a long road, getting from there to here, but My time is finally here..."

When I Was first introduced to Oasis in 1998, in its infancy so to speak, I was much to shy to email an article. lurked in the shadows, reading, geting my fix of gay lives and experiences every month. In January 2001, a new year, a new leaf, I emailed Jeff an article. He posted it, and even personally replied, Seemed there were alot of queers in my area. and Him knowing the one who introduced me, sent me a personal welcome note.

Over the years I diligently posted on Oasis, developeing as a person. I was a person of facades, secrets, an enigma of sorts. But Oasis was exactly that for me... And Oasis. I posted some of my inner most feelings here to scared to show them in real life. To let people know that I too, was Human.

My time on Oasis was soemtimes controversal. I admit that. Not always seeing eye to eye with others. Heated debates, cold shoulders. "Flash backs to warm nights, all those left behind, a suitcase of memories" In the end, everyone learned from it, we laughed and we cried.

Some of my Favorite Times were with the Fantastic Seven and the Lesbian thread. (Adrian, Etgen, Leisa, Hol, Jules, linds and myself) I will Always remeber my excitement of the contest. You guys made it all possible.

Over the last few months, In its continual evolution, I have come to find Oasis is not for me anymore. in my above noted growth, I find it harder and harder to relate to Oasis users. The misunderstandings, acusations, finger pointings, scapegoating, all other reasons aswell. I have moved on to other online blogs, places where I can be honest again. places of further intrigue and mystery. Places where I can be Human again.

In closeing I would Like to leave you with the lyrics to one Of my Favorite Songs.

My Way
-By Frank Sinatra

And now, the end is near;
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, I'll say it clear,
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain.

I've lived a life that's full.
I've traveled each and ev'ry highway;
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Regrets, I've had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.

I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.

I've loved, I've laughed and cried.
I've had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
"No, oh no not me,
I did it my way".

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows -
And did it my way!

JB

PS, Play Safe, wear a condom!

PSS, I will keep watch from time to time. just not very regularly

Jillie's picture

You shall be sorely missed

n/t

greyboi's picture

;-(

::Tears::

Whaaa!

I'll miss ya JB. Remember me. Remember us. You will forever be in our hearts.

eTgen's picture

Memories...

Like Fawlty Towers, Family Guy and Summer, all good-nay, great things have to come to an end. As you leave this place a part of you will forever stay, and the part of you that leaves will miss the part of you that stays. (thank you Babyoln 5 :-P ). You shall be missed.

In the words of Cabaret.

Good Night.

*nod says good bye too*

latterz,

eTgen

RoaG's picture

I have moved on to other onli

I have moved on to other online blogs, places where I can be honest again. places of further intrigue and mystery. Places where I can be Human again.

You weren't human here?

jessi3's picture

*muah* so long darling

*muah*
so long darling