I don't know....

Spirit1313's picture

Whether to cry or just be thoroughly depressed. This whole day has been fully depressing and I have no idea why. I woke up this morning and tension was hovering around me like a thick cloud, waiting to smother me to death. And it stayed that way all day. It was like that little Zoloft guy was following me around all day. All these negative emotions were gnawing away at me no matter what I did to ignore them.

As a result I finished one book that I had began two days ago and was no where near being done reading. I also reread "Rainbow Boys"...more than once. What can I say? It was definitely worth my time.

What really pushed me over the edge happened earlier tonight. She went to hit me. And for something that was entirely not my fault. It was HER mistake, not MINE. Yet she was going to hit me. She thought better of it, but just the fact that she was going to scared the shit out of me.

And I was having such a good day yesterday.....Damn...Well I guess you can't win 'em all.....

I am going to go and sulk and maybe carry on a conversation with the little Zoloft creature that is following me around...j/k on the conversation part....maybe.....As always thank you for the allowance to let me ramble all "I-am-a-typical-teen-with-pointless-babbly-problems"....G'nite...

Comments

vel's picture

writing is a good outlet

"Yet she was going to hit me. She thought better of it, but just the fact that she was going to scared the shit out of me." I know what you mean about that scaring the shit out of you. It feels like your trust has been betrayed. Take some deep breaths and let your feelings out. Hopefully you will wake up in the morning with the other Zoloft guy following you around - the happy one - he's cute.

Vel

Spirit1313's picture

Thanks....

The happy Zoloft creature was there this morning....but unfortunately so was the heat! Lol...Thank you for commenting...It improved my state of mind!
~Lisa Faery~

Beryl's picture

Wait,

your mum almost hit you?! Thats horrible! I sorry hun..... The cute little Zoloft creature will make it all better...

~B

Spirit1313's picture

::shrugs::

Dont worry about it.
~Lisa Faery~

Beryl's picture

tchsh (some sounds just don't type well...)

Of course I worry, I care.

~B