Left out and lost, without knowing why. I am consciously losing a friend and there is nothing I can do to stop it. And in general I just feel unloved. My so called best friend hasnt talked to me in forever. Not to mention its at a time when some of her other friends are being stupid and unappreciative. I hate this!
I dont know who I am, or where I belong. I dont know where I have been or where I am going. I cant figure anything out these days. Its all become an unreadable jumble of mindless bullshit that I cant interpret for the life of me! And I have no fucking clue what to do.
I am drowning in my own life. I have no life jacket, no preserver, not even a god damn rubber ducky to save me.
So, now what? Where do I turn? What direction am I going in? I sure as hell dont know. I need a sign, a fucking glow in the dark, sign to tell me what the fuck to do...