Hm. I haven't blogged here in awhile, but thought it couldn't hurt.
Recently, it's been seeming that I'm a bit more "out" than I previously thought. Several people have been asking me if I'm gay (some more than once), citing rumors, and I've also heard secondhand of people spreading around crap of differing levels ("Yeah, he came out last year!" Pfft).
My responses to these have been painful[ly worded]. Most of the time I can pull of shaking them off without actually SAYING I'm not gay. *sighs* Ah well. I'm out (as far as I know / have told) to two dozen girls and one to three guys.
I have a feeling a lot of this is going to change this year (sophmore in all-male high school), which can be interesting, but I'm also a little apprehensive about. For one, my counselor told me at the end of last year that this year we are going to have a GSA. Phew. That will be... interesting. o.O I'm still nervous though. Would joining that group be synonymous with coming out? How would being out differ from where I am now?
An old grade school acquaintance, while being swatted away by me with evasive responses "Don't believe everything you hear", "is [person] STILL spreading that around?", she did manage to fit in that it wouldn't change anything if I was. Granted, I don't speak with her that often, but I appreciated that... particularly as I would've expected her to be one of the more gossipy annoying ones. *sigh* I don't know.
Plus being kissed would be nice. Yes, I'm a dorky nerd. But putting off all this teenager-ness for coming out can be annoying sometimes. Pooh. =)