I am soooo in love....

Spirit1313's picture

HA! You thought I meant a person!!! But alas, my heart belongs to the nicest painting set I have ever laid my eyes upon. A beautiful pine wood easel, oil paints, poster paints, a palete (also wood), and paint brushes. *grins* It is an amazing art set and with any hope the mother 'rent noted my love for it (which was instant) it will become a Christmas present. *crosses fingers*

Anyway. I am falling into that crazy drowning thing again. It bites. It happens far too often. And you can tell, because my music taste changes and gets all dark and angry. I hate it. But what can you do when no one believes you? I can't write either. It blocks my writing. Except for things like that messed up maze writing I wrote the other day. I still can't pinpoint where the hell that one came from. It just sorta happened I suppose. The scary thing is, I could picture all of it as I was writing it. The vines on the walls growing more and more, getting taller and blocking out the light until it was almost black darkness. I could see the corners, and the monsters lurking around them, and I could hear the person (whether it was me or not) fighting to breathe...Yah, it was rather frightening. I suppose I could take that, and draw it. That would probably result in some interesting stuff.

Well, thats enough of me for today. Catcha later...

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Beryl's picture

Actually....

I was thinking more along the lines of pink puppy slippers. *grins*

What does no one believe you about? I fear Im a bit behind at the moment.

Spirit1313's picture

Ack...

Me being depressed...They dont want to believe me. I hate it. And yes I used to have anxiety and panic attacks, a lot of them. Started last year...Not good...
~Lisa Faery~

Beryl's picture

Thats what I thougth....

I think she might feel bad, or not want to admit her child isn't happy. If I was ever with you for an anxiety attack, I'd hold till it was over, if you let me. You may be going out with Chris now, but I still consider you a close friend and I still care about you. If you ever need me, or just need someone to talk too, you can always call. Just bitch at my brother to take down a note this time. *growls at inconsiderate older siblings....*

random's picture

do you have anxiety attacks?

do you have anxiety attacks?
although i guess you wouldnt speak so casually about it if they were...

Dragon's picture

...

As much as I drift off and screw up, I am here for you, as much as you want me to be...

~dragon fairy~