and he apparantly likes me very much. At least that was the impression I got when he was going down on me Thursday night, y'dig? This boy, whom we'll call Jeff (because that's his name) has apparantly been eyeing me for a couple months now (which I just found out yesterday). And then this crazy shit happened Thursday, and now I think he thinks I think...you know what I'm getting at here? What a shocker, someone's more involved than Pete is. The scenery and the actors change, the lines remain the same.
I mean, I do like Jeff, I think. As much as I can like someone I just met. He's cute, he's sweet, he's a geek like me. He does give superb head. But I think he's in the market to buy, not to rent, and I'm deeply uncomfortable with that notion. Not the idea of commitment itself, but with Jeff in particular. He's sweet, like I said. And I'm not.
I don't want to break this kid's heart, but dammit, I don't want to lead him on, because that just means I'm gonna have to break his heart worse later. I feel like I've got to say something, but I don't know how without sounding like a heartless player. I am a player, but I'm not heartless, I've been on the other side of this particular table a time or two myself, I don't want to subject anyone to that kind of thing, especially someone as kind and clueless as Jeff is. He's a sweet kid, you know? I don't get the "I've had my heart ripped out before" vibe off him, and I really don't want to do it to him. Anyone good in the "letting them down easy" department?