Just so gay.

ACCgirl's picture

After hanging out with a certain group of people,
this is how I feel today:

I've always liked Comic Sans. It must be a gay font because naturally my whole life revolves around my being a lesbian, right? I have no personality beyond gayness. My interests, my likes, my dislikes, it can all be rooted back to my being gay and whatever I say or don't say to you is, of course, because I'm gay. Right?

*cringe* People sometimes, I swear.

And they say gay rights are improving so we should all smile, thank everyone, and continue quietly with our gay lives. I don't know about you guys, but I still feel very much like an outsider. No matter how many laws are made or modified, they'll never be able to force homophobic people to want to get to know me and not be afraid to look past my "immoral sin". As long as they can't, all the gay rights laws in the world won't take away the hurt of some sneer in the hallway or the silent stereotypes I see in my own family's eyes when they look my way.

But anyway. I apologize for all of the above. Ranting when in a bad mood must be just a really gay thing to do. :S

*Hugs you all*


random's picture

shit yeah...

i so know how you feel.

niks121997's picture


I know what you mean. "Immoral sins" riiight....sometimes the world and people in it just bite.

"All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream."

Scruffy the Vampire Slayer's picture

the "lifestyle"

I totally agree with you, all this BS about the "gay lifestyle" pisses me off. If I get up tomorrow, get dressed, have breakfast, go to school, have lunch, finish school, come home have dinner, do my study, watch tv and go to bed, I will be living the gay lifestyle. Yet if a straight person did this it would be their daily life. What a crock of shit.
"The hardest thing in this world is to live in it" Buffy- The Gift

purplepaintwarrior's picture

my drag queen friend and I...

...have another friend who is pretty homophobic, so we said to her once "Imagine if ten percent of the world were straight, and everyone else was gay. How would you feel?" People think that we have rights, but they don't have to put up with the muttered comments and all the other crap we deal with...

(I’ll always remember, it was late afternoon, it lasted forever and ended too soon)(in places no one would find, all your feelings so deep inside, it was then that I realized that forever was in your eyes)

stars and nothing's picture

oh, girl...

My heart hurts for you, because I know how you feel. There's not much I can say except that I hope you eventually find a place in your life where people can understand and accept you.
I still feel like an outsider too, because we're a minority, and no matter how much legislation is passed, you can't legislate stereotypes or prejudice.
love emily

adrian's picture