Today I told my sister (17 years old) that I'm bisexual! She's the first
non-Oasis person to know. We were just chatting, and I was asking her about one
of her friends. She's staying at this friend's tonight, and I asked her if her friend's
male friend was going to be staying over. She said that her friend's mother
doesn't care, because she's convinced that this male friend is gay.
Got all that? :)
We just continued chatting about why her mother thinks that way, and then she,
kind of jokingly, asked me if I was gay. I responded, "No, I'm bisexual". She
thought I was joking, but then she saw that I was serious. I was smiling, so she
thought I was fooling around. I was just smiling because I couldn't believe that
the truth slipped out-- just like that!
She was kind of like "Oh." And then she hugged me, saying "Oooh, I feel so close
to you!" etc etc. Hmm. Anyway, she then surprised me by telling me about how
two of her female friends are actually bisexual! It's always funny-- I feel as
if I'm the only queer person I know, but I know that that's impossible. I
have probably met some queer people at University, but they just haven't told
me about their sexual orientation, or they, like me, haven't really told anybody.
Actually, that's a lie: I know one person who is a lesbian. Other than that one
person, I don't know anybody else.
Well, I suppose I'm now closer to being more open about my sexuality with people
in my physical life (as opposed to people on the Internet. Not that you're not
all wonderful, but, you know...). Still, I keep thinking about the question
from my first blog: "Where to from here?" Well, I know that I should tell my
parents, which will happen soon, but, other than that, what? I remember Jazzer
(who I haven't seen on the site in a while) saying that I should join a campus
LBGT group. Maybe, but I don't know. I'm not a particularly shy person, but, in
some situations, I can be very shy. I think this would be one of those situations.
Well, that's it. My first "coming out" experience. Whoa. Do I feel...different?
I'm not sure-- kind of, I guess. A bit better, I think. Next, my parents, I
suppose. Then, my friends...some time. I'm still worried about the impact on my
male friends (see my previous blog. See it and comment, dammit! ;) ). Do I tell
them, or should I just be open about it, if asked. I'll decide, eventually.
Well, that's it. Another really long blog, but, again, it's very important. And,
it's exciting! If this entry doesn't get promoted to the main page, I don't know
what will! C'mon, Adrian, do it! :)
Best to everyone (and don't leave without commenting, or I'll getcha!...)