I've known Tiffany, better known as Limpit, since I was in diapers. She's a couple of years older than me, so you'd think we would have drifted apart by now. That's not the case. She's been a constant force in my life. And she's one of the few who doesn't mind my sexuality in the least.
Just thinking about her brings a smile to my face. I used to live next door to her, so we saw each other every day. I think I spent more nights on her couch than in my own bed. I always had a place over there. Her family loved me, though I could never quite figure out why. They were all very conservative, and my family owned a motorcycle shop. I think that should give you an idea of my upbringing. But they put up with all my wild ideas and habits. So it never really bothered me that we were so different.
My family moved out west when I was in first grade. Leave it to Limpit to always write me. Living on oposite sides of the country didn't even effect our friendship. So when we moved back three years later, it was as if I'd never left. We went to different schools now, but I always ended up at her house when the final bell rang.
She started highschool two years before I did. My family was worried that she'd get involved with her new friends and leave me behind. After all, that's how it usually happens. And while it's true that she made new friends, she would still drop everything to hang out with me. I finally started high school, and we got to see each other more. I had first period with her, and we'd pass notes to each other in the halls. She spent more time with me and my friends than she did with people in her own class.
She transferred schools. I started homeschooling. I was always working, and she had new friends to hang out with. I thought that was the end of it. I couldn't have been more wrong.
When I came to terms with my sexuality, I needed to tell someone. I told Sari, of course, but I needed someone outside of the situation. I needed to know that I would be accepted. So, not knowing who else to turn to, I told Limpit. I was really afraid her conservative upbringing would have an effect, but I really shouldn't have worried. She not only accepted me, but fully supported me. And she's still one of the very few people who I can talk to without making them uneasy.
She's one of the most beautiful people you'll ever meet, both inside and out. She's funny, smart, understanding, loyal, sympathetic, patient, strong, and anything else you could ever want in a friend. She has this laugh that will make you smile just by hearing it. And even the most shallow person would take notice of her, because she looks like a supermodel. Her only fault is her taste in men. She has a horrible habit of falling for guys who don't realize how lucky they are to have her. Very few people have the capacity to love like she does.
She saw one of those boys today. She smiled and talked to him, never letting on about all the feelings she still held inside. As soon as he was out of sight, though, she fell apart. Someone once said that the most beautiful smile is the one that shines through tears. They must have been thinking of her when they spoke those words. Because watching her talk about how she loved him as the tears fall from her eyes was one of the most painfully beautiful things I've ever witnessed.
Sometimes I think that no matter how much we love and appreciate a person, we'll never comprehend the full beauty of their being. And while I still feel that way, I believe that today I might have caught a glimpse of it. I guess the problem is that everyone thinks of her as some sort of guiding angel. We forget that behind that strong, reliable smile is a girl who hurts just as much as any of us. Perhaps even more. So for anyone out there reading this, take a moment and think of that angel in your life. You don't have to do or say anything to them. Just think for a moment, and realize how lucky you are to know someone like that. Realize that they're putting you before any problems in their own life. That they do it because they love you. And I'd like you to realize that that in itself, ladies and gentlemen, makes anything we endure in this life well worth it.