HELP!

Anonymous's picture

I feel like a slut.....This happened a while back: Ian's best friend Richi asked me out. I said yes. I realized I really REALLY liked Ian. I admitted it to both of them. Richi and I broke up. He took it pretty well. I apologized, and feel extremely bad for doing that to him. We're still friends. I asked Ian out. Before he answered me, a girl I've known forever asked me out. I said yes. I apologized to Ian so much. And we're still very good friends. This girl and I went out for about 2 or 3 months. She broke up with me, said things were getting confusing. I found out she was back with her ex. We had a fight about it. She said I made her reconsider the whole thing. She broke up with her ex, said she wanted to be alone for a while. I emailed her and said a bunch of things, basically telling her I was still in love with her. She said I was obsessing over her. I emailed her again and said there's a difference between loving someone and obsessing over them. Before, she promised me she'd tell me if she did anything behind my back. I found out from a friend that she had cheated on me. So in the email, I also mentioned that I'd found out about that. Then I said bye. She emailed me back, and all she said was bye. Surprisingly, I'm not even upset about it. I guess I've realized that she really wasn't right for me and maybe my feelings weren't as real as I thought they were.
The problem now is that I still REALLY like Ian. I told him that my girlfriend and I broke up. I haven't said anything about still liking him. My feelings for him have never changed, and I will never stop regretting what I did to him. I'm scared to say anything about this to him, because I don't want him to think I'm a slut or anything like that. I want to ask him out, but I don't know if I should. Maybe it would be best to wait and see if he says anything about it. I don't know what to do! If anyone has any advice, I would GREATLY appreciate it!!! (And I feel really stupid in a way, because this is all online..........yes, I'm immature, I know....)

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Talaya's picture

well...

Something that might tilt the balance a little; I have a freind who's REALLY girl crazy, and he liked this one in particular, but he couldn't get up the guts to ask her out. Most of us (meaning our group of friends), got really frustrated with him after this went on for months. It stressed us all out, and made us snappy with eachother.