Talk about a breakdown...I'm a mess. I've been crying all morning, over practically nothing, and it's like I can't control it. I can't even calm myself down enough to take my meds. I'm guessing it probably has something to do with the fact that I start summer school today (just for gym, lame I know...) and I have to go to work two hours after I get home and won't get out until 7:30. My whole summer is screwed, pretty much. Dad was going to take us to 6 flags but says he wants to do it on a Wednesday. One of the days I have summer school, and the only day I work each week. He says it's cheaper. I told him I'd be really busy and it was a bad idea for me to miss these things, but he never made any effort to say he'd at least TRY to take us on a different day.
Betsy is being a snot again...I'm so sick of it. If anyone tries to be nice to her, or ask her how her day was or anything, she immedeatly gets mad and snaps back. It's tiring. I know what it's like for her, to have a temper, though mine was a lot worse. But I can't even try to help her out. It's like she hates me, but I know she doesn't. It's so hard to handle....the way she treats Mom pisses me off so much and it's so hard not to just start yelling at her.
She just bitches and bitches until I snap. And I did just now. I can't take it anymore. I'm sick of all these moments when I act like I used to and scream and yell at people. Sometimes I hate myself so much. I don't know what to do with myself. I feel so lost and there's no one to help me.