people suck

extreme447's picture

I think i just might finally be getting over Kathleen. It's awesome. Like yes i find her very hot. But i realize that nothing would ever come of it. I also realize that i do not think i would even want anything to come of it. It was getting to be ridiculous. My first entry here was dated April 2nd. That is over five months ago. And nothing had changed. I still wanted her. Badly. Slowly but surely my feeling for her have become less strong. It is basically just plutonic now which is awesome. On another note I lost two of my best friends this summer. After the deed was done, I learned that all of the time we had been friends they had talked about me behind my back. The most infuriating thing that i learned was that they had never believed that i was a lesbian. They had thought that it was an ellaborate lie constructed to hide my true feelings for John. It still angers me to know that people that were supposedly my friends did not believe such an important fact. I mean it took a lot from me to tell them in the first place. It was a huge deal for me. And for them to just dismiss it like it was nothing. It was just a giant slap in the face. Oo and then when I confronted them about it one of them fucking tried to tell me what my sexual identity was. Like she would know best. She also went as far as to tell me that i shouldnt go around telling other people that i was a lesbian cause it would anger others that actually were gay. The nerve of her. Shes lucky that we were not face to face when she said that because she probably would have walked away with a broken nose. People suck...

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niks121997's picture

More than a broken nose...

...she'd be lucky to walk out alive if it were me. Grr...
I'm sorry you lost two friends but it sounds like this is definitely a case where you are indeed better off without them. Congrats on getting over Kathleen. :) It's bloody hard to get over people.

"All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream."

vel's picture

yeah, what is it with people not believing?!

I had an experience where someone wouldn't believe me this summer:
I told a girl who's in a circle of friends I hang out with a lot in the summer, and she acted like she believed me, but the next few days were filled with her asking people all of these questions about if I was really a lesbian, then when I thought that part was over with, she remained convinced until the end of the summer that I was only telling her I'm a lesbian to hide that I was going out with this guy in our friend group. It's ridiculous. Your story is more infuriating though, because it sounds like it was a closer friend who did this, and the whole situation was to be expected from the particular girl in my story.

Still it's such a wierd phenomenon. Why would you or I be coming out if we weren't gay - it's insane!

Oh, and my mother doesn't think I'm a lesbian either, but that's another story.

Good job getting over that girl, and I wish you the best in the future.

Love and Peace, vel

milly the fairy's picture

effing hell!

What is it about people saying 'You're not gay'.
Like yeah, I want to lose my mates, I want to be discrimated against, I want people to discuss me behind my back!
Some people really need to grow up and realise being gay is a big decision and its not something you do lightly.

I'll always be.... yours fatally....

milly the fairy's picture

effing hell!

What is it about people saying 'You're not gay'.
Like yeah, I want to lose my mates, I want to be discrimated against, I want people to discuss me behind my back!
Some people really need to grow up and realise coming out as gay is a big decision and its not something you do lightly.

I'll always be.... yours fatally....