Drowning

Anonymous's picture

Hannah told me that my crush flirts with the guys on the bus a lot, and now we're hoping that she's just doing that to cover herself up. The other day we "decided" (since I'm in denial that she's straight) that my crush is in the closet and wants to come out, but hasn't or can't or whatever. I almost died today. Yes, I'm pathetic... she (my crush) got up and stood RIGHT next to me after English when we were waiting for the bell. I looked at her and smiled and she smiled back. And she was standing really close to me. I'm probably exaggerating a bit, but she was close enough to get my hopes up once again. Ahh and she was talking a lot today before the bell rang for English. And I LOVE her voice. I love everything about her. Her hair, her skin, her eyes, her smile. She's so beautiful. All I can do is hope that she's in the closet. But I really really really need to stop getting my hopes up over and over. I can't help it. I'm in love. Does anyone think it's even possible to be in love with someone you don't know? If it is, I am so in love I could drown in my longing for her.