False Hope

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Today was strange... I felt pretty good for the most part. I was happy to be back in school instead of sitting around the house doing nothing. And I was happy to be around my friends again. We joked and laughed and had fun all day, it was nice. But I also felt good about my crush. And I have no idea why. It's really bothering me now, though, because it was like I felt a lot of hope that maybe she really is gay. Even though she's straight. I'm so frustrated. What do I do? How do I stop thinking about it? How do I move on? Why am I in love with a straight girl? A girl I don't even know?? And now I'm thinking that maybe the reason I felt good and happy today was because I'm in denial about the fact that this girl is straight. I really hate having crushes on people... especially people you have no chance with. Any advice?