Figured It Out

Rikki's picture

I got a phone call. I should have guess this would happen. There is no turning back now. She found out what PFLAG was. I got the call. It all started out fine. What do you want for christmas? Then she asks. I guess she didn't know how to ask. Was I in the group because of my preference or because I was supporting someone? And I couldn't say a thing. All I could do was say yeah and sure and try to keep from crying over the phone. And I don't know why I am now. I guess this is what I hoped for. She doesn't hate me. Who else knows I'm in it? I don't know now. But I couldn't even say why. What would I say? Even when things work out kind of okay I can't deal with them.