Life really sucks. i got told yesterday, by a school counselor who i really
admire that she had been getting complaints about me, people were saying
that i showed to much 'public, physical affection' for a girl. first of all,
i don't show 'public, physical affection' for anyone, not really. a friend and
i lean on eachother (she's female) and i sit on her desk, but it's not like
we're kissing, or even holding hands (which is allowed by the school code!!)
so any way, i got pissed. now, you need to know, i've gotten about 7 total
hours of sleep in the past two days, i'm dealing with being sick, i'm also
dealing with the worst case of PMS i have ever had, and, to top it all off,
my mom read me this huge lecture telling me that it's not okay to tell a
friend that i'm lesbian. so i'm not doing to well. so any way, hte counselor
tells me this, and some other things, and i start crying, i just can't keep it
all in. and get this, she starts calling me a 'drama queen'. i mean, really.
this was during 7th period. after school, the friend that i suposedly show
'public, physical affection' for, and i, went in to talk to the counselor. i
got to the office first, and started talking to her. she was still calling
me a drama queen, and i got really pissed at her. i was crying my eyes out
and said "my life is so screwed up right now," which she denied, and then told
me to stop making a scene, and if i wanted to talk with her, i should go to her
office. we, and my friend, talked through it, but i still feel rotton about
being teased about needing to cry. this is from the woman who tells me to
'let it out'. well, i'm letting it out!! i'm not sure if i trust her anymore.
if anyone else complains that i'm making them uncomftorable, they can go stuff
themselves. if i can't be myself at school, i won't go.