Friends? Well, in the very appropriate words of Simple Plan- "I think I've got a lot of friends but I don't here from them." See, the thing is- we used to be close. To begin with, we were a four- but when one friend became a lot sluttier, and started putting us down, we drifted apart from her especially when she started hanging with another group of girls who had previously been insulting us,
For a while, we were an even closer three, and, although we felt bad for our ex-best friend, we were OK. After a while, ex-friend stopped being so bad and we became friends, although never as close as before. I was happy with the arrangement, and started to get on really well with all three mates like before.
Now though, I never hear from any of them. They live in the same town- whereas I live in a village about a mile or so away. I’m not as into the same stuff as them though. Our music tastes have changed- they prefer hard rock and make me listen to it- but when I try and get them to listen to Katie Melua or Scissor Sisters (my two non-hard rock favourites) they just refuse and switch the CDs to their own choices. This means that I’m not invited to the concerts they go to, which I don’t mind too much, but they talk about them for months before and months after- by which time they’re ready for another concert which takes up all conversation. Our old chats about stuff we all have in common are forgotten.
I know my geek loves of Star Trek/Wars, Buffy, Red Dwarf, Monty Python, X-Files, and Jonathan Creek etc. are not to their tastes at all, so when I talk to other people with the same interests- my friends complain and say that I’m ‘neglecting’ them. The thing is, I’m not someone who makes friends easily. Before Secondary School I was a loner, and I’m used to having acquaintances that I like but don’t really have strong feelings for. I don’t think I could ever drift from my friends, even if we’re not getting along as well as before. I’m just too close and I’ve told them so much that I couldn’t bear to be alone anymore. I just feel that it’s since I came out to them that this has happened, but I don’t want to have to choose sexuality over friends. I don’t see why I should have to.
Oh, and I have tried telling them how I feel, but I just get the old “We like you just as much as before