sometimes i pretend

ACCgirl's picture

sometimes i pretend i don’t see you
in the hallway
and just walk on by
pretending to be absorbed in
thoughts of English or a guy
or whatever goes through normal people’s minds
and somehow pretending not to care
about your wonderful, fascinating presence
brushing past me
never seems to work
because my pulse quickens enormously
no matter how big of lie i tell myself

people say you’re talkative
and i’m really having trouble
admitting to myself
that every waking hour i crave
some of your pointless words

i know i don’t have to beg
(you talk to anyone who listens)
but give me a
pointless word for my
pointless world

because i get in too many bloody fist fights
with reality
like when i try to keep walking
with a purpose
and all that happens is the
realization
that i’m dragging along an oversized secret
called my life
or these heavy, heavy thoughts of people like
you
smiling in the rain
like the innocent you are
like the only angel i don’t want to look away from
the only wonder of the world
without a book written about how bright it shines
but lady, there will be one in my soul…

for watching you has made me a poet

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the mouse that roared's picture

That gave me chills. Beautifu

That gave me chills. Beautifully written. I tell myself lies like that, too...

niks121997's picture

Hey there

Hey-

You're alive! I haven't seen a post from you in a while, nad here you go and post a wonderful piece. :)

"All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream."

ACCgirl's picture

I know, I know...

...where have I been all your life.

Times are busy, but I'm always checking in on Oasis. And thank you for saying that, by the way. :)

niks121997's picture

Lol

Exactly! You're the person I've been searching for my whole 19 years of life.

"All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream."

KieBem81's picture

idk i want to cry that is awesome..bittersweet

"If you love someone, tell them for hearts are often broken by words left unspoken"

1 in 3 women think of having sex or experimenting with other women

"Should I smile because we're friends or frown because thats all we'll ever be?"

cnn* :)

L0ne Guardian's picture

Very pretty. I like it lots.

Very pretty. I like it lots. ^_^

beulah land's picture

"because i get in too many bl

"because i get in too many bloody fist fights
with reality ..."
stellar. awesome. righteous. i don't even know what else to say. very, very good.
and you tell me i have talent.