This is my first entry on this site. I joined because i thought that maybe,if i could just get in some kind of contact with other people my own age, who
may or may not be going through something i am, i could feel better with who i am-or who i am becoming. Not that i really expect anyone to read this,
but maybe it will just help sending my thoughts out into the void.
I am attracted to a girl. Before i met her, i was attracted to the idea
of being with a girl. I daydream so much about love and relationships,
and all i seem to be able to dream about now is me kissing another girl...not
a boy, but a girl. And i'm okay with that-i'm just not okay with how others
will act towards me is i tell them. I want to figure everything out before i
officially "come out" to anyone-but i can't even seem to do that.
I don't know if i am just bisexual or actually lesbian. Am i supposed to
pin point it like that or just go with the flow of how i feel?
I have these grand thoughts of meeting someone i can share this all with.
That's probably why i brought myself to sign up at this site-i think i will
meet someone just like me who i can relate to and who can help me work things out.
Most of the time, i expect too much, or wish for too much.
I guess now that i have a public outlet for all this stuff-i have filled my journal
to the end debating myself about my sexuality-i can type it all here,
and hope for some help. If anyone wants to write to me, feel free. I'll be back
here soon to rant some more.