anguish

crookedsmile's picture

You're quite used to this now, the tiny tugs at your insides, the leaps in your stomach whenever you see her. It won't stop for a while, and maybe you should take some time off, some time away from her. It always worked before, and you know that it'll save you from countless pain and heatache. You can only take so much, and lately you've been just about ready to break. And you're sick of this, sick of always being in love and always being hurt and always being so fucking emo, and you hate it. Because emo kids are sad and pathetic, and you don't want to be that. You want to be strong, so that no one will affect you, and if she doesn't care about you you can just shrug it off.

But you know that's not going to happen, even though you're perfectly fine around her. A couple more words and it'll all be tangled up again. You're sick of falling in love, and you wish you didn't care anymore. I'm sorry I can't do this. I am sorry I can't be a good friend, and I'm sorry I disappear so much. I wish I could tell you why. But I can't. I'm sorry I love you.

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ACCgirl's picture

You're so cool.

Loved how you put this.
And I miss reading your stuff.

niks121997's picture

Ditto

I agree with ACC. I miss your writing.

"All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream."

crookedsmile's picture

i missed you guys too

i missed you guys too

crookedsmile's picture

Thank you!! busy busy busy

Thank you!!
busy
busy busy busy
barely have time to update my lj

crookedsmile's picture

Thanks! More food for my swo

Thanks! More food for my swollen ego. ;)
you miss the heart wrenching angsty depressed love rambling?

so do i
only thing i write about.

Deformed Emotion's picture

Love It!

Long time no see btw

*One day stupid ppl will rule and I shall be your leader*

KieBem81's picture

hmm this is beautiful yet sad :/

"If you love someone, tell them for hearts are often broken by words left unspoken"

1 in 3 women think of having sex or experimenting with other women

"Should I smile because we're friends or frown because thats all we'll ever be?"

cnn* :)

crookedsmile's picture

true... sadly, the girl i li

true...
sadly, the girl i like is very very straight

the mouse that roared's picture

Wow

That was beautifully written. I've been feeling the same way lately.

crookedsmile's picture

merce beaucoup

merce beaucoup