I use quotation marks because I am actually smart, just not smart enough to do the work. I wish it were hard so I'd at least have that as an excuse but that's not the case, I can't seem to focus. I don't know why either, my mind just drifts off sometimes or my mind goes on pause or something. I'm so tired of everyone talking about my potential, or what I could do if I tried. Don't you see me trying? After the lectures and the crying it's always the same, "Alexis is lazy, she just cares about herself". Dont't you think she just might want help, or at least want to help?