I'm ready to get out of college and move on. Fitchburg State isn't the place for me. Worcester State wasn't the place for me either. Maybe the Mass College of Liberal Arts would have been the best place. I guess I could always transfer. Atleast I can get all my required courses out of the way. Then I can move on and figure out what I really want to major in and do with my life. Right now I'm just in a lull. My writing isn't going far, I can't think of a thing to paint, and well I am just baffled by my lack of ability in anything.
I'm also tired of my social life or lack there of. I don't have any time to do anything. i have class and work and then my family is swallowing a huge chunk of my time. Honestly, I don't really get why I always put up with the things they ask of me. I just feel bad saying no to them. Especially when they are asking me to do something simple. And then there are the times when they are just being ridiculous and lazy.
I think my contemporary art class is going to be my favorite class. i get to do a pop Art sculpture. I'm thinking of sculpting the AOL man and then incorporating a bunch of their free cd rom disks in some way. It's going to be amusing. Although I get the feeling it's going to take up a lot of time. Time that I don't currently have. I'll have to create time I suppose.
And finally, as vain as this all sounds, I just want my dad to love me, a bedroom with a door and heat on the inside of the house, and to be that girl that another guy/girl wants. All of those things would potentially be nice. For now, I'll live with my Pop art project and the good friends that I have.
Good night everyone.