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College sux! I can't for the life of me figure out why I still seem to care about people who think that it's their life goal to make my life and my girl's life as horrible as possible. I mean, wtf? And through all of this, people want to blame me. What kinda bull$#!+ is that? Have I done anything to hurt anyone? Uh, no. All I did was tell Z that I didn't hate her. Then, I responded after she wrote me a note. Excuse me for not believing that I'm doomed to hell for who I'm attracted to. Excuse me for thinking that maybe, just maybe I don't need everyone else's permission to date someone. I said that several other things mentioned briefly in the Bible as sins are now considered acceptable. What makes homosexuality or bisexuality so bad? Well, I guess that made her flip her lid because as I was walking to the Lambda meeting (org. on campus for glbt), I got a call from her older sister. I got to hear all about how everything was my fault. It's my fault that Z cries all the time. It's my fault that there's a rift between her, Z, and my girl. Why does the gay kid get blamed for everything? To top that offf, the meeting wasn't even where they said it would be.

There is actually some good news. My girl came out to a friend of the family, and all went well with that. This cool lady actually wants to meet me. Dunno if that'll ever happen though, she stays kinda busy, but it could happen. In fact, I'd like it to happen.

Well, I don't really know what is going to happen now. Still want us to be together, but I really don't want anything bad to happen to her. I will be here for her no matter what though. I hate Tuesdays though. Everything happens on a Tuesday. Last November on Tuesday was when the hell really began. Two weeks ago on Tuesday all the bull$#!+ was brought up again. And just when I start thinking that things could be getting better, this happens and guess what today is... TUESDAY!!! Of all days...another Tuesday. Why me?




Dude that must suck Tuesdays SUCK for me too first at like 9 in the morning I have counseling *shiver* then youth at the church.Well at least you and your girl seem to be going good.Well hope things start to look up laterz.

I want to cry but my pride won't let me.