agh...

zoe rose's picture

sooo...what?
im new here, so ive decided to give some backround on me...im bisexual, which was discovered earlier this year at my friend elises house, having a little fun with alcohol, the three of us, elise, sophie and i, got a little carried away...and giving me a chance to realize that hey, girls are just as great, if not better...to me.
im only 13, i live in Austin in this huge glass house (almost literally) ( we have concrete too) and i go to a private school...that totally sucks. but i guess its nice that two of my friends are bi...which might not be as common at public schools..well, actually, i know.
problem is, i like sophie, who i thought i had gotten over, but apparently not...
see, a while ago i had gotten drunk with her at a party- only us, actually- and we went in a room, and she told me she liked me. which made me happy, but made me like her back...i dunno, basically i got all happy, leaned in, we started kissing, or making out whatever you call it and ended up on a bed with her on top of me and her hand down my shirt. which, god, let me tell you, was the best hour of my life. really...
and then the next day i asked her if she meant it and she was kind of like...i dunno..and later she emailed me and said, yeah, she did like me, but she would get over me and that it was for the best blah blah blah.
i guess that just made me want her more...
shes hot, shes amazing, and i cant stop looking at her, and it doesnt help that shes my friend...because i think it would be so much easier to get over her if she wasnt...that way i wouldnt see her every minute of my day, that ways she wouldnt be a nice to me...
agh.
i hate this.
oh well...
its wierd cuz im the only one of my friends who actually seems attreacted to girls- i mean, the others will say theyve had crushes on girls before, but they dont ever talk about liking anyone now or talking about some hot girl that they saw somewhere as much as i do...which makes me feel slightly alienated...
i dunno...
this is basically why im here, why i joined...so im not so alienated.
i guess thats all...
ill try to write more another day, but its late now, and im tired and sore from track...
ugh.
bye bye...
zoe

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Jopurdy's picture

That sux! So did she just say

That sux! So did she just say that there was no chance between the two of you whatsoever, or did she say maybe in the future or what? That doesn't make sense. Why would she just start something up with you, and then be like "no, we can't do this" the very next day! That is so beyond mean it's not even funny! Do you still talk to her? Are you still friends? If I were you, I'd figure out what was going on! That's just messed up!

If it's a sin to love you
Then in hell i'd rather be
Opposed to living a life with people
In heaven looking down on me

niks121997's picture

Agreed

I agree. What's going on there?

"All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream."

zoe rose's picture

in answer...check the latest

in answer...check the latest entry...
i decided it was too long to put in a reply so lol, its in another entry...

life is hell.
enjoy it while you can.