thats just the effect she has on me...

Tjedza's picture

I surprised myself today. i looked across the cafeteria at the love of my life and instead of feeling a mandatory pang of jealousy, I sat back, chilled and smiled. She was breath-taking. i didnt mind what she was laughing at or who she was laughing with.

It didnt matter.

All that did was that she was happy and joyous, unworried about anything- i looked at her and all my stupid anger fell away from me. Then i picked up my pen and wrote this "story." Finally i can to The End. The End of my story, argument, stupidity, frustration, thoughts. Just the sight of you laughing... living... loving life- changed all that.
-( Aileen H.)

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Jopurdy's picture

Awww. well, that's good that

Awww. well, that's good that you came to that point. it is really good that you can be happy for her, well--being happy. I know that it is difficult seeing someone you care about so much being happy with someone other than you. Hmm. now i'm curious about this story.

If it's a sin to love you
Then in hell i'd rather be
Opposed to living a life with people
In heaven looking down on me

_justme_'s picture

thats completely awesome that

thats completely awesome that you now have that knowledge and understandment. Kudos!

"whatever happens here, at least I know I got it being me"

polybigirl's picture

Yay, you have achieved frupli

Yay, you have achieved frupliness. It means you are happy to see someone happy, in my opinion the best feeling.

Children of a future age reading this indignant page know that in a former time love sweet love was thought a crime

- William Blake