It's all wet and drippy outside. They told us in school this was the wettest winter my state has seen since the Civil War. It's very strange.
I decided that instead of having both the feelings of straight girl and a lesbian, and thus some kind of dual orientaion, it's the opposite: I have no sexual preference in the context of gender. I don't know if that's how it is for other bisexuals, but I was happy to figure it out.
My friend and I had this really silly joke plan to get married when we grow up. I do that with a lot of people, it's fun. Like name our kids or whatever. It's a game. Totallly out of the blue she announced that she wants to marry this boy she knows, because she "wasn't meant to spend her life with a woman." This is true, of course; she's straight. But it was such a strange thing to stay, just out of no where... The whole point was that it was totally silly... It made me feel really bad. I don't know why I cared so much.
I think my boyfriend's ex-girlfriend is really hot... It's bad. In a funny way. Kind of. Ehh.
My best friend decided she was going to get stoned last night, after passionately avoiding pot (and everything else) for years. I hope she had a good time, I guess, and it's absolutely her decision and if that's what she wants to do she should go ahead and do it, but it made me feel kind of... I don't know, left out? Because I really, really shouldn't, just for medical/physical reasons, and before I didn't really care, but now it's like, I'm the only one. I don't know. I feel like a silly stereotypical teenager even talking about this, but oh well.
In other news, I'm on spring break now which is really good because I'm sooooo exhausted, on every level. I'm not going anywhere or really doing anything special, but that's just fine: I want to sleep.
Okay yeah, that's all I've got to say for now...