well...in response...

zoe rose's picture

okay, well, like, you know we were drunk, so we were just doing what we REALLY REALLY wanted to...but we kept getting interupted which totally pissed me off!! but you know. so she couldnt have known then that she was starting something...god, why am i defending her? agh.
shit and you know what? i am so...whatever...that im sitting her on my bed bouncing up and down holding my breath, crossing my fingers that she EMAILED ME. and her emails are normally so short! god...
oh, well, anyways, basically i talked to her after getting the email and i guess she just didnt want to screw up our friendship and everything...and so she got over me and i started liking her...and now im really not sure...
i think what she meant by not wanting to have anything happen was cuz- she doesnt want to be with a girl...i mean, she says shes bi and everything, and she liked girls, but she doesnt want to face actually being with one...she can mess around with them and everything, but not go into anything serious...so yea...
thats what i think.
and i think its damn stupid.
but ah well, so's life.
agh, but why does she play with me like this- like some days it feels like shes totally flirting with me and other days avoiding me...why cant she just be...i dunno...clearer? less confusing??
Why cant I be more...i dont know...AGH!!!
agggghhhhh i neeed help...
anyone any advice??? pleeeease?
agh.