i'm just convinced that the ultimate She (for Me) is not out there.
i ate lunch today with this girl from high school who i'm still wildly attracted to, and we were going to watch a movie afterwards but she was too tired and wanted to take a nap. i'm... dying here. FUCK i just have such a hard time finding girls i'm attracted to and click with and i don't know why that is. it's the same way with guys i guess but fuck guys, i don't even care about guys. i just want GIRL GIRL GIRL. FUCKY FUCK. i want to make love to a woman so badly...
i'm whining. i know. ohh man she's so attractive. GOD i sound like a 12 year old boy. i AM a twelve year old boy... in a 20 year old woman's body.
ah. i ache with longing... and horniness.
oh, and by the way, COULD I GET ANY GAYER?!?