So I quit

armadillo's picture

Um...I used to smoke the reefer everyday after work, sometimes before work, before surfing, whenever hanging out with friends, etc. Often times, beer would be there too, if not something harder. Anyway, quite recently I did shrooms with my sister and a couple of old buddies of ours and she flipped the way I did a year before. I was trying to prove to myself that I could control my mind, but watching my sister lose it, just made me feel like shit. Anyway, I realized what kinda mistake I made by taking them right as they started to work. Then I apologized as sincerely as I possibly could to God, just so he'd make it go away, so I could calm my sister down and get her back to reality.
Anyway, the funny thing was, that at that moment, I realized that I had make one HUGE mistake, but that didn't mean that I had to make many more. At that moment, I cried and begged God to help me out. Instantly, it was as though I was completely sober. I then drank some of the Corona i had been gulping and realized that it was also part of the problem. So was the herb that i had been smoking. So I dumped out the rest of the bottle (something I would refer to as alcohol abuse) and I proceeded to talk my sister back into reality.
I told her that I knew God was angry, but that he's also forgiving, otherwise I couldn't have been talking to her the way that I was (which was miraculous - I should've been peaking!). I decided to quit everything and it's been a little over a week now.
My friends all think I'm a quiter and a pansy. I don't get to see them as often now, but how can I love them if I'm not even able to handle myself anymore?
Anyway, I pray everyday for the strength to keep on saying no!
Somehow, every time I try to quit, everyone wants to give things to me. It's always really tempting and usually the best of the best, too.
Anyway, I could be writing a poem, but I guess I'm keeping my hands from being idle by writing this.

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niks121997's picture

Congratulations

Congratulations on quitting. Stay strong since you probably will continue to have people offer things to you...

"Life's under no obligation to give us what we expect. We take what we get and are thankful that it is no worse than it is."

"All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream."

FlameFish08's picture

nice job

thats awesome, good for you. that must have taken a huge amount of self-discipline. i thought cutting down on the junk food was tough for me, but your situation seems so much more intense then my measly desserts. im sorry your friends are kind of moving away, bud its great that u realize u need urself to be healthy before you can do anyhting. keep up the struggle, and every time you get tempted just write here or something.