"Why I Hate The World"

Anonymous's picture

Yes, it is certain that I will fail at least two of my classes for the year. The school FINALLY made an effort to do something, but only about gym. Is that stupid or what? Shouldn't they be more concerned about my academic classes???
I hate my counselor. I hate her, I hate her, I hate her. We were talking about my grades and I said something like, "I don't care" and she started rubbing everything in my face. Even if she didn't mean to, she did. And I hate her even more now.
My life is at a complete stop. Or maybe it's just me. I'm stopped but everything keeps moving. Grr. None of my friends understand. No one understands. I don't know what to do. I can't do this anymore...
Dad can buy me a psp, but he can't feed me. *snort* Yeah, that oughta get him the family guy image he so desperately wants.
So I sat down earlier and wrote down everything that was pissing me off. I titled it "Why I Hate The World" and ended with about four pages of things...
There are some things coming up, like a GSA picnic with other GSAs and my friend's Grad. party. And both include swimming. Not only do I not want to take my bathing suit because I look horrible in one, but I can't swim worth crap. Urg, and my ex-friend is going to my friend's Grad. party. That's fine, because they're friends, but I swear to God, if she so much as talks to me... I told M that I won't talk to her, and he said that's fine. SHE'S MOVING! WOOOOOOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I need a girlfriend. Maybe I just want one. Do you ever really NEED a girlfriend/boyfriend? I don't care, I just want one. One! Why am I never good enough for anyone?!
I feel like hating everyone right now. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I've been sitting around crying ALL day. I can't do anything else... this sucks butt.


Daisy's picture

I'm sorry about your school a

I'm sorry about your school and counselor and grades and stuff... The way schools are run is bullshit. There's no reason for education to be this line of pre-digested delibrate merchandise, which is how it often feels, at least where I am.

I hope you have fun at the picnic and the party, despite the swimming and the ex-friend and all... If you want a girlfriend, a GSA picnic doesn't sound like a bad place to start. :)

Good luck, with everything. I hope things start looking up for you soon.


These seconds when I'm shaking leave me shuddering for days.