if i was to take sex completly out of the equation , i would
definetly be with a girl. i can totally have sex with a guy
and really could care less about him the next second after orgasm.
i manipulate , seduce , flatter ,desire and do what ever i need to do
when i am horny.but afterwards , i really really really have no
feelings at all for guys. i hate them actually , they stink,
they are idiots and i really hate guys in general.
i hate fags the most , effeminate and sissy like. might as well be a chick
with a dick.i can't stand pussy boys and fems.
i understand you are who you are , but hey , dosen't mean i have to
like their company.
i can love a girl to death but then i can also hate with all of my
heart and soul. i withold sex for power i think.
i like that i can have control over it and wave it in front
of their face, something they want but can't have.
i want a girl but i dispise them soo much.
i want to love but i will eventually hate them anyways.
i hate people but enjoy envoking feelings of
fear , desire , anxiety ,respect and sexual tension in people.
i love to control and manipulate people.
i love to break a girls heart for fun and make her want me.
i want to be wanted and desired only so i can hurt them.
i enjoy being emotionally untouchable and detacthed.
indifferent and aloof. uncaring and cold.
i distort and pervert it through homosexuality and desires
of the flesh, with that it currupts any and all attempts
for ever falling in love.
what girl would want to love a faggot?
what girl would want to be with such a villan like me?
if i were to take sex out of the equation and just followed my
heart , i would be with a girl no doubt in my mind at all.
i know deep down in my heart why i am soo cruel and fucked up.
it's not my sexuality i have been repressing ,
but my ability to let go and become emotionally vulnerable to
fall in love. i repress my true desires of love.
i can't stand heartache. i am soo rough on the outside because i am
soo soft inside.
my heart , my body and my mind are fighting...
i just want to be loved , i can never love a guy,but i will have sex with them.
i can only love a girl but i will never allow it to happen.
I GUESS I AM JUST FUCKED....